I miss you

Today was my dads birthday. For those who don't know me too well and are reading this,
my father passed away back in 2008. He passed away from an O.D of Oxy Cotton, mixed
with alcohol on June 27th. The years have been so hard to overcome. Sometimes I feel
overwhelmed with the amount of time that has just flown by right passed my eyes. If I ever
get a moment to just think, I feel like there's too much to even process sometimes. My brain
feels like an overload of memories, traumatic and happy. Even though those two differenciate in
extreme ways, there's still a little good in every day and or experience. That is what I have
learned. Im so thankful to have gone through this experience.. of losing someone. It sounds
so awful to say it but I really, really am thankful. In my future I will only have to go through it once,
and by then ill have little children of my own who I have to be strong for-- and I know I will be
able to be strong for them if I am as strong as I am now when Im merely a kid.. I was such a
stubborn little brat before he passed away. I was always getting into no good.. I didnt try in
school, I was into marijuana and alcohol.. and look at me now. A clean slate and happy..
majority of the time. If something drastic didn;t happen, my views and morals wouldn;t have
been twisted. They're more into a logical perspective now.. I know this isn't exactly
telling about my day but it's still feelings that I wish to put down in my blog.. It may be boring
for you but it's nice for me to look back to. If anyone has been through something similar to
this please try to think of it in my way.. it helps so much.

I ended up working today. I got called in early. My original shift was 3-7, but I was called
into work at 2. My manager has been working way too many hours so she's trying to get rid of
as many possible so that usually goes back to me or sean. I wish I could see Sacha and Clarissa
more. Im always stuck with bonehead. :) Haha just kidding.. but yeah it would be nice to have some
girl talk instead of talking about... boy stuff with sean. Oh well, what more could I ask for? He's
company so thats that. I just cant wait until I get paid, muahaha.

Ciao :)

Sleep time in no time!

Today was sooo tiring. It felt like it dragged on forever. The walk back from spalutions always
kills me. Maybe Im out of shape? Now Im beginning to ponder. I guess I could tone up a little,
but is there really time? Blah I guess so.. I think Im just too lazy. 

3..2..1
ATTENTION: DO YOU LIKE KITTENS?
One of my friends, Sean, is having trouble finding a home for two starving kittens.
Please give them a fresh start in a warm, loving home. One male and one female.
Is there any empty heart out there who seaks a fun furry companion? If so,
please text me at (519) 709-9802. They are FREE. The sooner they get a home
the better.

I dont really know what else to write :s
Today I re-opened my formspring just for fun I guess, it'll be going down
shortly. So play if you want :b Also I decided to see my neopets account. God
has it just been forever since Ive been on there. All my pets are dead. HAHAHAHA.
Well not dead but "dying".. Im pretty sure theyve been that way for a few years but some how..
just SOME HOW they manage to stay living. Maybe it's cause they're PIXELS!?? Gosh I
don't know. Man I really need sleep. I got home and slept until seven thirty and Im still tired.
Thats gotta be saying something.

I GET MY HAIR DONE TOMORROW.
Holy crap Im excited. Katharine is getting me some awesome shampoo too.
I forgot to take it home today along with my sweater, haha whoops!
Im so excited. Getting my hair done at a co-op class. WHAT else could
I ask for?!?! Omg <33

END
xD (Fail blog tonight, I apologize)

Mondays

They tend to be really boring. Thankfully I only had to go to school for two periods today!
My co-op placement is closed on Mondays! It's really awesome but I also have to make up
for the hours that I don't work. :c So my mother came to pick me up and we had a hoot in the
office getting my cellphone back (Which I may or may not have used during Mr.Buchanans
English class) but regardless, Mr.B told my mother how I was a good kid and yada yada,
but I'm "addicted" to my cellphone :b I love that teacher.. So I DID end up getting my phone
almost right after I got it taken away because I was going home.

I hung out with one of my coworkers, Sean, the other day. it was really fun :)
He's a busker! It's pretty cool. We went to London and performed on the
streets to make funds for his drama class. If they don't get enough money then they
can't have a school play this year :( He lives in doorchester so it's not like it's easy to
come up with cash for it! Not saying Doorchester's a bad place but I wouldn't really
want to live there unless I had my G2. Speaking of which, when my mother picked
me up today I was planning on getting my G1, but I realized I could only take out
100$ per day, and she didn't have any money on her and it costs more than that.
SO once again, procrastination. For heavens sakes I know grade elevens who can
even drive and I can't-- it;s ridiculous. I would love to have that freedom to just take
off and drive anywhere. Im hoping I get to drive dads van soon. His birthday is this
Sunday, and I have a feeling it's going to be so weird.. It's already been two years since
he passed away. It's so strange how time can just fly by.. and so many things change including
people, relationships as in friends and who you're with.. it's all so sudden.

Works been pretty good, too. I really like my job still. I am continuing to meet new people
in the break room and I'm starting to know a lot of people who work in different departments
and it feels less awkward.

Which is.... always a good thing :)
Bye <3!

Oh boy

This week has been a very stressful week. I owe Katharine a huuuge favour by her giving me a scalp massage and doing my hair at Spalutions. It felt awesome and it was refreshing to be pampered.
She also said she was going to get me some great toning shampoo for the right price. I love doing work there! Its such a nice atmosphere with nice customers and employees. I am greatful for the experience!

Work wasnt too great yesterday. Some customer lashed out on me because I didn't "understand" what she was saying about DVD-R's, even though I completely understood her a full 100%. Then she goes over to grocery and she starts talking bad about me to the cashiers. Not like they could listen to her anyways, they're too busy. But yes, she pretty much called me stupid at the counter, but whatever. I also had a shitty day yesterday because of personal incidents that shouldnt have been talked about while I was working.

Well right now I dont know really what to talk about. I guess you could know that Brittany and I are
about to go to East Side Marios. Its our tradition! We wait as long as we can then pretty much gorge ourselves with food. Its pretty chillaxing. Digesting is exhausting though I must admit. I should probably
write more blogs on a day to day basis. I could have had like seven by now but Im too lazy.
Maybe I should kill that habit.. being lazy.. biting nails.. Its just so impossible.
Im so happy this week is over. I really need to relax. Maybe see my sister or something.
I miss my friends too :c If youre reading this send me a text <3

That ish all.
FOOD

Today was rather bland. I wokr up at 6:50, like I do every 
week day, and went downstairs for a shower.
I got ready and yada yada. I was in a pretty good mood 
until I realized that my mother had not left me a brush to brush my hair with.
I guess my family is somewhat dysfunctional that way.. oh well. So 
I guess I went "Au Natural" today.. Like a cave woman :(


I wasn't really in a good mood after that. I didn't exactly have that much fun 
on Friday night after twelve or so. I had to stay at a party to help out my best
friend. Oh well, thats alright. I ended up jeopardizing my ride but I think
she needed me more than anyone did at home.


Today was more than frustrating. As you may have read in my past entry, 
I mentioned that I was stressed out about working for a spa as a co-op placement..
Well, turns out, Spalutions never even called me back. I wasted all that time
when I could have been doing something of value.  So I ended up having third
lunch, forth and fifth spare today. Thats pretty much doing nothing the ENTIRE
day. Sounds glorious right? WRONG. It's too boring, and none of my friends have 
a spare or anything so it's not like I could hang with them. I ended up going to
resource to help out kids with their work since I had nothing else to do.
I guess thats an effective use of my time? I don't know.


I kind of felt shitty at the end of the day for personal reasons involving other
people. Maybe I'm just too emotional..  I think that's what it is. I'm a really
soft person on the inside. What appears outside is extremely different, and
once you get to know me you will see that I am an extremely complicated 
individual. Blahh...


I ended up having to work today from four til nine. I work at Hurleys Independant
Photo Lab, for those who didn't know. It's a really, I mean REALLY good and easy
job. I am so greatful to have this job as a first job for me. My last few shifts that I have
had have been totally dead, which was so unlike today! Tine just flew by, and I ended
up taking my break with Kevin (like usual) but it kind of got cut short because someone 
needed me downstairs for a code on the Kodak machines. Oh well! A customer is more
important than my break.


Thats all for now, because Im getting tired.
Cya

School days, School days

School has been going alright. There's been a lot of stress already, though.
I am taking pretty easy classes this semester, but next semester will
 be more difficult. Right now I'm taking Communications Technology 
which is pretty fun.. It's my first period class.
I don't really like the grade elevens in the class to be totally honest,
 but I'm sure I'll get used to them. One of my old best friends is in the class,
 her name is Haley. We go waaay back. I feel like her and I
are almost sisters, and lead and live in the same life. 
Sometimes we get into little scraps but it doesn't
really mean anything to us anymore, anyways.


Second period I have English with Mr.Buchanan. 
He's a really weird teacher in all honesty. We mostly
do our work on the computers which is pretty neat.
 I don't like my writing, anyways, so I guess it
benefits me in that way. Im usually late for his class, 
and he gets angry at me. I can't really help it though.
Com tech is more important to me than English, I guess..
 On Thursday I got my phone taken away, which
sucked. I had halls and my phone in my butt pocket and
 the halls hit the horrid "Say in Command!" key..
It was humiliating, but rather funny at the same time.
 I hate my blackberry sometimes.. Oh well, I got it back
at the end of class so it's not like it really mattered anyways.
 After this class I have lunch time, which is extremely boring
 haha. I threw a cookie at a grade nine the other day, because
 he threw a water bottle at Brittany.. one of my best friends, 
and knowing us (bitch squad) we had to seek revenge.


After having lunch with my friends, I have a co-op education course
. THIS is what I meant by having stress already. I don't really know
 if I have a reliable source to bring me to Spalutions (Hair and Spa)..
 this is where Im performing my co-op training. Then what if I don't
 have a ride back to school and I work at four? Even if I take my bus
 home I get home at roughly 3:35.. which isn't really a lot of time to get
 ready and whatnot. I don't live anywhere close to my workplace and my
 bus doesn't go anywhere near it. Stress stress stress..
If I miss ten days of Co-op I automatically lose 2 credits..
 I really cannot afford to lose those. It's already too late to switch
 out of this class so I guess Ill be spending money on some cabs (woohoo)


Well thats about it I guess.
Kind of new to this whole blogging thing,
 but Im sure Ill figure it out eventually.
Cya